the emotional post. bring in the orchestra.
Spring, gilt in all its symbolism, holds special meaning this year.
hard work. cold winters. planting seeds. seeing it bloom. (you know, all the typical chessy bullshit metaphors that we use -- because -- they are emblematically true.)
in March i'm gonna go to my special place at the mountain and revel in it.
it's funny: in life in order to keep all good around you, it requires a lot of fuck you's -- not necessarily going out and telling people that, but the internal meter of what is allowed and what is not allowed in your life guiding that in order to understand and protect the good people you have around you. i'm fiercely loyal and protective of those who are close to me, as i am familiar with the alternative - i've at times poorly chosen friends and business associates. (E.g., not recognizing oh - that people can lie and/or be full of shit. . . . what a concept!)
how do you know what success is if you haven't failed?
how do you know overcoming if you are not informed by adversity?
how do you know what pure love is if you have not experienced lesser degrees of love?
***
this week, my friend Brian Bowen Smith is having his first show, with Brandon Boyd and Brent Bolthouse.... Brian inspires me. He was also the first person to tell me to get the fuck over shit and keep doing music. coming from a guy who at the age of 28 decided to quit an uphill career in extreme sports and acting to pursue photography of all things - by phoning Herb Ritts and asking him for a job. Herb ended up teaching him everything he knows -- and -- -gave Brian his camera before he died.
fast forward to Brian being a superstar photographer today in his own right.
Brian, his wife, family -- i do feel grateful to have them as friends every single second. No matter where you come from --- you can always choose goodness around you.
***
now, after these past almost 3 years of learning to be a better musician, singer, writer, *person,* and doing 3.5 albums, i really feel it's time to come out and take it a step further. i'll always stick to the truth i know inside of me.
the planets are aligned, and the power of the team i'm so fortunate to have around me also have the goal. i'm the kind of person who has their internal beliefs and goals, but really want to see that the team i have around me see the things i keep close to my chest as a reality. they do. they think it, they verbalize it, and it allows me to do what i know to do best. and i feel safe for the first time in years, maybe ever.
i think i can safely say it's gonna rock.
p&l
fd
hard work. cold winters. planting seeds. seeing it bloom. (you know, all the typical chessy bullshit metaphors that we use -- because -- they are emblematically true.)
in March i'm gonna go to my special place at the mountain and revel in it.
it's funny: in life in order to keep all good around you, it requires a lot of fuck you's -- not necessarily going out and telling people that, but the internal meter of what is allowed and what is not allowed in your life guiding that in order to understand and protect the good people you have around you. i'm fiercely loyal and protective of those who are close to me, as i am familiar with the alternative - i've at times poorly chosen friends and business associates. (E.g., not recognizing oh - that people can lie and/or be full of shit. . . . what a concept!)
how do you know what success is if you haven't failed?
how do you know overcoming if you are not informed by adversity?
how do you know what pure love is if you have not experienced lesser degrees of love?
***
this week, my friend Brian Bowen Smith is having his first show, with Brandon Boyd and Brent Bolthouse.... Brian inspires me. He was also the first person to tell me to get the fuck over shit and keep doing music. coming from a guy who at the age of 28 decided to quit an uphill career in extreme sports and acting to pursue photography of all things - by phoning Herb Ritts and asking him for a job. Herb ended up teaching him everything he knows -- and -- -gave Brian his camera before he died.
fast forward to Brian being a superstar photographer today in his own right.
Brian, his wife, family -- i do feel grateful to have them as friends every single second. No matter where you come from --- you can always choose goodness around you.
***
now, after these past almost 3 years of learning to be a better musician, singer, writer, *person,* and doing 3.5 albums, i really feel it's time to come out and take it a step further. i'll always stick to the truth i know inside of me.
the planets are aligned, and the power of the team i'm so fortunate to have around me also have the goal. i'm the kind of person who has their internal beliefs and goals, but really want to see that the team i have around me see the things i keep close to my chest as a reality. they do. they think it, they verbalize it, and it allows me to do what i know to do best. and i feel safe for the first time in years, maybe ever.
i think i can safely say it's gonna rock.
p&l
fd
posted by free dominguez at 12:09 PM
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I knew there was a reason I thought Free Dominguez was amazing. Even back in kt days. It was like you spoke and sang from the heart, like you were real. I'm not saying you aren't real, but back then to me you were bigger than just a person. You still are, of course, but now I somewhat know about the real you.
And I find you awesome. Real. With a truth inside coming out.
Real true friends are hard to come by, and you do have to stick through the crap sometimes to realize who they are. But you find out, and don't ever take for granted those people.
Never stop being amazing, Free.
Good for u free!! Sounds like u are really motivated at the moment.
Loyal fan
No question, it's all gonna rock!
There's nothing quite like the feeling of safety.
I'm glad that you kind find people who'll respect and encourage your beliefs and goals. They seem to be hard to find in this day and age!
Have a good one!
Right on, Free!!!
Not to harp on semantics, but I hope I never feel truly safe. Secure, sure. I'd wager we all desire security. But safety, at least to me, equals stagnation... Dangling several hundred feet off a cliff face attached to a line may be "secure" but it isn't precisely "safe." Safe would be staying on the ground.
But on that note, I think I see what you mean. You have walls, but a door as well, and you alone are the porter. When you make wise choices as to who you let in, you do feel secure.
Or safe. I won't split hairs.
when i find relationships that make me feel safe, it allows freedom. to some people a feeling of safety may make them uneasy, as "something should be wrong." to some, they thrive on the pendulum swings -- the chaos/order adrenaline..... however, i save all the drama for my art. there's already enough drama in life that needs thwarting / extemporaneous circumstances. so when it comes to my relationships, i want as much stability as possible.
I love and respect your honesty.
I choose the wrong engineer recently and had the painful experience of trying to get my masters back (read: cops, attorneys, disillusionment, tears and eventual triumph).
I've learned so much from it though. To be more discerning (in a healthy way) of who I trust and allow into my life.
ps. I agree on the stability thing. I love feeling safe in my chosen circle of friends.
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